As time has passed since Trevor passed away lil Hallie has stepped up to become my right hand. But, part of me held back until recently in totally replacing Trevor with her in my life. But, lately, without any thought I have begun to have her go out ot the tractors with me, out to get the mail, out to the garage, out to get tool, just like Trevor used to. She now hangs with me as I tinker in the garage, although she is still getting used to just hanging out. She likes to go…. to move around.. but she has become pretty adamant about being with me. She no longer takes no for an answer. She loves to be with me and I love being with her. She is finally filling all the paw prints Trevor left.
Why did it take me so long? Perhaps saying goodbye and letting go is hard for me to do… perhaps I know how this will end and how I will have to rise from the ashes again…. perhaps it is just the cycle of timing for me…. who knows? All I know is I have a best friend who who now goes everywhere with me… just like my Trevor, big Hallie and Niamh……. what more can I say about it… a new era…. another collie to love and share with and eventually to mourn….. but in the meantime we will dance through life till the end of her life…. relishing every moment……. dreading the end…. but not ever wanting to give up one moment because of the coming end… but living life to the fullest…. and living and having fun and love…. what more can one want?